Saturday, January 26, 2013

Do you believe your own lies?

DMX asked a highly underrated question: WHAT DEZE' BITCHES WANT FROM A NIGGA???

Ghee whiz.

When I was a young, naive 14 year old, my cousin and I were practically joined at the hip. She's 4 years older than me so I felt real cool hanging with a high school kid. Somewhere around 16, I started to notice how much of a fucking psycho she is.

She'd do stuff like

Take a shower, get dressed, tells me to do the same b/c we're about to go somewhere. I follow her orders and it turns out, the only "somewhere" we went was her front porch.

-_-

Or other stuff like:

Spend all of her money and complain about being broke.

Claiming she was pregnant like, every 4 months or so

stupid stuff like that.

Now that I'm older, I look back and wonder who was crazier? Her for all the outlandish lies, or Me for believing in her like I did.

Either way, a few nights ago, I realized just how much of a fucking lunatic she is.


There I was, minding my own business, playing Skyrim V and listening to Pandora.

When suddenly, a phone call.

She's in another crisis and needs my help.

She tells me that she took out a student loan and her boyfriend stole it from her.

(This seems realistic, right?)

I was following her story right up until she told me how much the loan was for.

According to her (and I quote this Verbatim):

"Well... the loan was for $20,000. I had gave $5,000 to his uncle to build me a house and everything was constructed but the garage. I went to withdrawal some more money to pay him, and they told me my boyfriend came in earlier that day and closed the account out".


I thought I misheard her so I was like

"wait, you mean you OWE $20,000 in student loans?"

Her: "No that's how much my loan was for".

Me: "...okay hold up, let me call you right back. Stay by the phone"...

(I never called her back).

I actually had a big bad attitude towards her because I'm like damn, does she really think I'm that fucking stupid, or does she just believe in her own lies THAT much?

*sighs*

And that's been the story of my new year thus far.

am I wrong for feeling the way I do? I love my cousin to death, Lord knows I do. But I just can't deal with that stupid ish anymore. She still does the same stuff we did when we were teenagers...

-_Cogito
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