Saturday, April 30, 2016

Save the Roaches!

So April was a very tough month for me. I had to take a HUGE financial loss and am just now starting to get back on my feet. Life sucks sometimes.

Up until today, I haven't been able to afford any weed for the last 5 days.

But yesterday night while I was cleaning out my closet, where I keep my stash, I suddenly remembered that I had a pill bottle with like 4 "roaches" in it.

I sparked the four of them up and had a nice lil buzz going.

To all my weed smokers reading this, you know how handy a weed roach comes when you're in a clutch!

Whilst smoking said roaches, I started thinking to myself of all the other rough patches in my life and how strong they made me. I know that is a cliche statement, but sometimes, it's good to be reminded of where you came from, all the BS you've endured, and all the lessons they taught you.

Maybe I CAN do this, after all!
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Music, you say? (I've been getting into Biggie lately)
Gimme the Loot -- Biggie Smalls
Kick in the Door -- Biggie Smalls
10 Crack Commandments -- Biggie Smalls
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Enjoy the pics!
-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com












Thursday, March 31, 2016

Happy 26th Birfday to Me! (5'4" Wit Ma Cute Ass!)

When I started this blog, I was like 19 years old! In these seven years, I've learned so much and am grateful for EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YA"LL!!!

So how've I been?

Well, I'm 4 pounds away from my target weight (190 lbs), my high top is on fleek,
one of my toughest professors complimented my homework the other day, and all my bills are up-to-date.

Nothing is the same about me.

I now live far removed from ALL things familiar, halfway across the country from family/friends.

I am doing my thug thizzle in grad school.

I am establishing myself as an artist in a relatively dead local art scene in this hick ass backwood of a town I now reside in.

But all in all, I can't complain.

I'm just so thankful to be surrounded by support, love, and encouragement. I mean this from the bottom of my heart: thanks to all of ya'll for being there and rooting me through this dangerous ordeal called "The Twenties".

I've got four years to go!
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Music, you say?
Machine Gun Funk -- Biggie  (All I want is bitches! Big booty bitches!)
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Enjoy the pics!
-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com











Sunday, February 28, 2016

Just Wait

Hey! How you've been? I've gotten a couple emails from folks asking wtf my problem is and why I'm not putting out much content lately on here. I'm so sorry ya'll, a nigga just been busy af these past few months.

I just started my second semester of grad school and it takes SOOOOOO much time/energy/focus away from other shit right now. I haven't even been watching much porn as of late. I haven't even really been all that sexually charged either.

Right now, I am my University's bottom bitch.

Can't fucking WAIT for this summer though b/c my lil brother and I are taking a road trip to Colorado for the most epic SMOKING SESSION of our lifetime.

In the meantime, lemme go finish this dumb ass article about this nigga named Nestorius...

One more thing, can I just say that this has been one of the LIVEST Black History Months ever?
Between Beyonce dropping "Formation" out of nowhere and scaring tf out of White America, to Kendrick Lamar's breathtaking Grammy performance (I cried), I think this is truly one for the record books.
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Music, you say?
 Bahamas -- Lost in the Light

Just Wait -- Chance the Rapper
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-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com
Enjoy the pics!









Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Hot Rod, Ace Rockwood, Mr. Cali, and Jovonnie

Hey ya'll! So I recently asked my lil bro to give me four black gay porn stars to rate. Naturally, he picked guys that I don't see it for,  but I'll still give a whack at it.

Hot Rod
Personally, I'm not a fan. At all. No stranger to controversy, I've heard tales of Hot Rod being an extremely difficult model to work with. He's also spoken in interviews about his (alleged) butt injections, his beef with Trapp Boy (one of my favs), and has long since retired from porn. Any attraction I did have for Hot Rod dissipated when I watched this Dr. Phil ass clip of his ex boyfriend and fellow porn star Angyl Valentino (who I also don't see it for), crying about how terrible their relationship was. Neither of my heads can see past his personal life and I just can't ever get "into" a scene with Hot Rod in it. Click Here  to watch his interview with TheSkorpionShow.

Ace Rockwood
Fun Fact: I CANNOT be turned on by porn stars that resemble family members or people I know in real life. Ace has certainly contributed to the industry and has a great reputation for the most part. The only reason I can't fuck with him is because he looks SO MUCH like my favorite YouTube Vlogger Kid Fury. Like, they could be brothers almost. So while I can't say anything too negative about Ace, I CAN say that I'll never find him sexually attractive.

Mr. Cali
Maybe I've been living under a rock. Because I had NO idea this nigga even existed until today. I've checked out a few of his scenes and he's quite the stallion. I can def see myself getting into him a lot more. But only from the neck, down. He kinda looks like Tickle-Me Elmo to me. :/

Jovonnie
When I started collecting porn way back in 2009, there was this scene with Jovonnie and his boyfriend at the time (City Boi) fucking in the shower at a YMCA or something. To this day, that scene is one of my favorite EVER in my entire collection thus far. Aside from that, I don't care for his work in these past few years.
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Music, you say?
Your Lips Are Mine -- Eyeflash
Colorblind -- Eyeflash
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Excuse any typos! Enjoy the pics!
-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com














Sunday, December 20, 2015

A Tale of Two Gay Siblings

So first off, a nigga had to gon' head n' just delete that whole "YouTube" channel thing I tried to make happen. I look crazy af in those vids and plus, it totally just outted my blog to someone in my personal life.

Let me explain.

My younger brother of 5 years, Rome, is the 5'12",230 lbs, darker-skinned version of me, with a few extra spoonfuls of sugar.

Growing up, our dad was the typical asshole who spoke openly of his disgust for homosexuals and that none of us better not turn out "that way" because he's not raising any faggots. 

Where I was constantly questioning my sexuality and ashamed of being me, Rome never really seemed to give a fuck. He's always been himself no matter what, and I really admire that quality in him.

 Luckily, we're blessed to have a family where our sexuality is no issue whatsoever.

 In fact, our ENTIRE family would jump to our defense when our dad was out of line. These days, our father is working on repairing his relationships with us and is learning how to separate his love for us from the lifestyles he disagrees with.

 Rome and I got a chance to reconnect this past Thanksgiving in Chicago (we smoked weed the WHOLE time and it was EVERYTHING). We're so much alike and anytime we're together, it's bound to be a good night.

Knowing how much he looks up to me makes me want to be a more responsible gay man, if that makes sense.

He was perusing YouTube the other day and came across my page. I trust him enough to keep my blog secret, but beyond him, NO ONE in my personal life can EVER know about my blog. So I just deleted that shit. Too risky.

This post is dedicated to the biggest lil' brother I could ask for.

Are you the only (out) gay person in your family? Do tell! 
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Music, you say?
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 Excuse any typos and enjoy the pics! 
-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com