My New Relationship

It's been what? Like 6 or 7 months that I've been sleeping alone?

I've been doing some introspect.

I feared becoming one of those crazy bitches that ALWAYS has to be in a relationship in order to validate their worth.

I feared that being single meant I was undesirable, unwanted, unloved..

And after so many months of being single with nobody trying to pursue me, I started to believe like maybe there IS something wrong with me...

For a while, there was this rain cloud of low self-esteem over my head...

Until I met him.

I had to go retake my school ID picture out on campus and since it's so far out of town, I decided to just make a day of it. I packed my laptop to suck up all of the free wi-fi I could while stuffing my face in the cafeteria.

Seeing people all Booed up in the Student Commons didn't help me any. Now I had to add Jealousy to my list of shit to work out.

Fuck it. I'm going to McDonalds...

Walking through the double doors, my eye caught the image of this guy in the double-window.

He was a cutie!

5'4"
around 210 lbs
dark skinned, light brown eyes
a well manicured high-top fade
All white Ralph Lauren v-neck t-shirt
these crazy blue jean sandals...

You know the rest:

Dude had swag.
I had a phone #.
Now he has it too.

We've been kicking it lately.

(okay, enough with the allegories. I'm dating my damn self. Until love comes back around, I'm in a fully committed relationship with that sexy bitch in my bathroom mirror).

('scuze any typos, I'm being lazy and don't feel like editing)

love ya!

-_Cogito
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Adorn -- Miguel

So Fly -- Elle Varner'

Body Party -- Ciara

1991 -- Azealia Banks

Jay-Z -- Lil Kim and Tiffany Foxx
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Enjoy the pics!
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Songs That Make You Cry

I'm working on this assignment for my Psychology class and I need your help.

The assignment is to survey at least 20 people and ask them if they've ever cried or gotten emotional while singing or listening to a song.

For example, some of my tearjerk songs that ALWAYS get me crying thug nigga tears, are:

Dance With My Father Again (Luther Vandross)

Halo -- (Beyonce, acoustic version)

Hallelujah -- (Gin Wigmore, best version)

Hallelujah -- (the Leonard Cohen version performed by Alexandria Burke on X-Factor)

I Miss You -- (Aaliyah, the tribute video version)

Hey Mama -- (Kanye West performed this in front of his mother on Oprah one year)

Cosmic Love -- (Florence + The Machine)

The Power of Love -- (Celine Dion)

1 + 1 -- (Beyonce)

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Do you have any "Tearjerk" songs?

Leave a comment and let me know!

Enjoy the pics

Capricornaries@hotmail.com

-_Cogito

One Million Hits and Counting!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!! I knew ya'll loved me!

I've been writing this blog since July of 2009 and I had no idea it would become such an important part of my life. I've aged, changed, and grown in ways I never could have foreseen.

Seriously.

Without this blog, I don't know WHAT I would do. It isn't healthy to keep all this sexy shit inside of my head.

So thank ya'll.

Thank ya'll for reading, commenting, emailing, wisdom, dating advice, getting to know me, and helping me to know myself.

Ya'll have been here through break ups, deaths, insecurities, transitions, horny behavior, car problems, etc.

Especially in a world where Blogging is fading away and losing viewers to Vloggers...
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Why do I blog?

1. First off, I love porn. Not just as spank-material, I love the industry itself. I have favorite directors, production companies, actors/models, etc. This blog is my outlet when I want to discuss relating topics that nobody in my real life can ever know I'm into.

2. I am a helpless freak. A 23 year old with the sexual tastes of guys twice my age and quadruple my experience. I'll get more into that in my next post "If I Directed Porn".

3. This is kinda like my... diary. It's funny how I can share my secrets with total strangers but not anyone in my immediate life.

4. Because on the 8th day, God created Adam Dexter (Click Here)
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I know sometimes I only get to make a post twice a month (if I'm lucky), but I'm just hella busy lately.
This accelerated Bachelor's program is kicking my ass. But I'll be done in December, so, yay!

With that, I'm doing a timed test right now in another tab and I've got to finish it right quick.

I just wanted to drop this lil' dime on ya'll.
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Marylin Monroe -- Brianna Perry

Peanut Butter -- RuPaul ft. Big Freedia

Halo -- (Beyonce cover by Harper Blynn)

Slow Hands -- (Interpol cover by Azealia Banks)

Slow Hands -- Interpol
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Enjoy the pics!

-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com