Sunday, March 1, 2015

3 Least Favorite Things About Porn (Oh, I have to delete my blog).

Google is on some bullshit. On March 23rd 2015, they are implementing a new policy that pretty much deletes any blog with adult content that is not intended for art or other reasons. Because of this, my XXX slut bucket of a blog (5 years and counting!) will, regrettably, be on that chopping block. *sighs*

Hope, however, is not lost.

My good man Emmanuel over at DL Confessions (click here) advised me to switch this blog over to Wordpress. I will be doing so once it gets closer to the date.

In the meantime, I'm going to do a post every sunday up until that point. These four posts will be about the basics: Porn. Good old fashioned XXX smut. Starting with Today's. (see below).
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3 least favorite things about porn.

1. Porn is all about the fantasy. What the viewer sees on screen is the final product of countless hours of filming and editing. Behind the scenes, its all kind of shit going on. For example, ThaXXXList.com did this Youtube vid of the 13 most Controversial Men of Color in Gay Porn (click here). I think sometimes we're so used to seeing them as sexual objects, that we forget how porn stars are human, just like us.

2. The Refractory Period. We've all been there. 2 AM. Horny. Nobody to fuck but your right hand. So you pull up Myvidster, whip out your P. Nutty Buddy, and commence to jacking off. The reason why men are immediately uninterested in sex after orgasm (and have to wait a while to achieve another erections) is because of the Refractory Period (click here). Sometimes, for me, there is an...empty feeling afterwards. After a good jack off session, reality sets in. I'm no longer being banged out by some sexy ass DL vers top in my imagination. I'm now back in my...quiet, lonely apartment.

3. Bad Transitions. One second, they're doing it doggy style. Then, the next, they're doing it missionary. I like to see how they get up from the bed (or wherever), and actually transition into the next position. That, and the fact that music in the background of a porn vid is distracting to me.
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Music, you say?
Black Rain -- Teena Marie
6 God -- Drake
Promise (Remix) -- Lil Wayne
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Enjoy the pics! Love ya'll! Those first two pics are just... Goooooooddddd damn.
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-_Cogito















Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Ok Cupid, I Give Up!

Ryan and I met on OKCupid and had a virtual "talking" relationship, with the promise of one day meeting up in person. He moved into my city 2 years ago and still hadn't met any new friends or whatever.

From the very first inbox message, we just clicked. We held maaaaad conversations about nothing and everything. The more we talked, the more similarities and life experiences we turned out to have.

We weren't in love or anything, but in those short months, we truly had become good friends.

I'd be a damn liar if I said I wasn't catching feelings for him, b/c I was. And so was he. But whenever the discussion of there being any kind of "us", he would just...shut down.

The last time we texted (or, rather, the last time he texted  me back) was around New Years Eve 2014. After that, nothing but radio silence on his end.

No calls. No texts. No inbox. Nothing. The last time he logged onto his OkCupid account was on the same day that he stopped talking to me, so I figured it must be something with his phone.

"Oh, maybe he dropped his phone in the dishwater or something. Soon as he gets a new phone, he'll hit me up for sure..."

You know, the kinda lil' lies you tell yourself to keep your heart from fucking shattering.

Earlier last night, after two inactive months online, he finally logged into his OKC. Not only that, but it also showed that he was one of my recent visitors to my profile. This means that he saw the random sad emoticon I put in his inbox a few weeks ago.

This means that he DOES remember I exist, but just doesn't give a fuck. OH, the pain! When I realized that he, for whatever reason, doesn't fuck with me anymore, I just...bawled.

Despite my pride, despite my attempt at not crawling into his inbox, despite my efforts not to grovel at his feet, I found myself right there, void of dignity.

I put in his inbox "Hey Ryan, its Nay. I'm not sure why we lost touch but if you ever want to reconnect, you have my number. I'll be deleting my account soon, so...".

Yes, it hurts like a muhfucka. But at this point, me navigating life in my twenties has taught me how to let people go that don't want to be kept. It's fucked up that I'm losing a friend, but...I just...can't.

The ball is in his court now. If he does decide to hit me up, then that will be one "great getting up morning", as the old saints used to say. But if not, that's cool too. I'll be here regardless, like the fool I am.

UGH! Why TF are your Twenties so damn hard?
Ok Cupid, I give up. Stay the FUCK from round me!
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Music, you say?
Gone and Never Coming Back -- Melanie Fiona
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Enjoy the pics, ya'll. I'm just soooo not in the mood for anything sexual. Imagine that! lol
-_Cogito Excuse any typos. My tough ass was crying while typing this. Smh.
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Monday, January 19, 2015

Skky Black is a Baaaaad Bitch!

A couple months back, I had a hankering for some good ol' fashioned Rock the Icon vids on PornHub. 

In what is now my favorite scene of his, he catches Skky Black (see below), in the shower, playing with herself. He comes into the shower and they do the do. Skky Black is my favorite female porn star, hands down. 

Watching Skky play with herself turned me on like never before. Her pussy just looked so...juicy. Sweet, even. Plus, her tits was looking RIGHT, and she's just an overall bad bitch in general. I can't find that original link but here goes an equally hot scene with them together (click here). 

Before long, my mind began to wander into the unexplored trenches of my inner freak. 

I imagined that, when Rock came into the bathroom, he caught me eating her out on the side of the tub. From there, Skky and I tag-team his dick. He hits me from the back while I'm eating her from the back, face down ass up. We take it to the bedroom and finish what we started. Ending with us both cumming on her chest. 

Everything about the fantasy was just so...new and exciting. I'd revisit the fantasy once or twice a week. Each time, Rock the Icon's presence becomes less and less. 

Eventually, my fantasy evolved into one where its just Skky and I. Me eating her out, 69-ing, fucking her with a vibrator, her doing me...

And now, I'm seriously considering indulging my curiosities with a female. I wanna know what it's like to have sex with a woman. If and when that does happen, I would be upfront and tell her what it is I'm doing. I've had several propositions from chicks in the past, but, of course, never acted upon it. 

Idk wtf I may be getting myself into. But the next time a woman makes a pass at me, I just might go ahead and see what all the hype is about! 

Stay tuned! (and welcome to 2015. It's only been 20 days in this new year and I've ALREADY had to cut a few bitches off! smh.). 
Excuse any typos. 
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Music, you say? (I just discovered FKA Twigs a week ago and I'm in LOVE! A lil weird at first, but...). 

Pendulum -- FKA Twigs
Hide -- FKA Twigs
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Enjoy the pics! Skky Black is a baaaaaaad bitch, yo! 
-_Cogito
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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

3.6 gpa and Selfies

Well! Will you look at that? Your strong ass has survived another year! I can only hope that the ups and down of the past 12 months have impacted your life for the better. We all go through bullshit. 

For me, 2014 challenged me to put myself first and...trust the process. 

January-March 2014,  I went three months without going to church. For that first month, I felt SO guilty about not attending church. But my absence made a bigger statement than words ever could. After a sort of "spiritual stalemate" between my pastor and I, we reconciled, but I still only have one foot in and one foot out of church... But that's another post. 

April-June 2014, After a family retreat to the Smokey Mountains, I went back to Louisville, KY to kick it a little while longer. While there, my very first best friend and I broke. Read my post In Memoriam (click here) to know what I'm talking about. 

July-September 2014--Summer was...crazy. My grandmother was evicted from her apartment for a verrrryyyyy petty reason. By God's grace, we found one that is not only better, but cheaper! Count your blessings. Oh, and I finished school in September. Guess what nigga came out with a 3.6 gpa? ME! My Summa Cum Laude ass! 

October-December 2014-- In late October, after all kinds of rejection letters from grad schools, I was finally accepted into a great grad school that is only 3 hours away from my family. Yayyy! Not only that, but I already have a one bedroom unit apartment available next summer 2015 when it's time for me to relocate. 

Unencumbered of toxic people, and school--nothing was holding me back anymore. I finally had the chance to expand and grow.
I decided to get back in the dating scene. 

I met a really great guy on OK Cupid. We've been talking for like 2 months, though we've yet to meet in person. At one point, I was talking to him, and a few other guys. But the other night, I realized that the only one I really want to get to know, is him... We "clicked" on our very first conversation and our chemistry is just...crazy good. We'll see where that goes...

I can only hope that you, too, have grown and learned something from this past year. 
I'm not just talking out of my ass when I say that I love ya'll. The fact that ya'll are still here with me is empowering. 

Before this year ends, forget what you must, forgive those who've earned it, and move on. 

Til next time, ya'll! <3 font="" xoxoxoxo="">
Excuse any typos. Im not entirely sober right now. Pregame much? 
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Music, you say? I found some GREAT music these past few months. 

My Song Knows what you Did in the Dark (Light 'em Up) -- Fall Out Boy-
Gas Pedal -- Sage the Gemini ft. Iamsu
Down on my Luck -- Vic Mensa
Kinda Sometimes Maybe -- Jessie Ware
Worst Behavior -- Drake  
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Enjoy the pics! I didn't feel like uploading any other pics so...I hope you like my lil' selfies! 
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-_Cogito




Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Satiate the Beast

How much have you changed since your first time having sex?

At 15, when I began my sexual pursuits:
I used to only be attracted to light skin dudes.
I thought I was just a bottom.
I thought I'd never be into any race other than black or other colored ethnicities.
Hell, I wasn't even using lube to jack off yet!

Before the fleshlights, before the male G-spot toys, before this very blog, I was just a newbie.
I was an unassuming rookie who could still learn a thing or two about sex in general.

That seems like a lifetime ago. The savage beast inside me has since been awakened and
BABY, lemme tell you--it is roaring hella loud.

There's levels to this shit. From the naive mindset of my teenage years, up to this very moment as an adult, I now realize the sexual fluidity (no pun intended) in terms of fucking.

In specific, my taste in Porn is very fickle.
One night, all I want to see is a decent BreedItRaw flick
Another night, I want to see nothing but Treasure Island Media
On another night, I have a taste for a spicy Latin/Puerto Rican dude
The list goes on and on. Is that weird?

How has your sexuality evolved since you took the training wheels off?
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Music, you say? How 'bout a lil' of my girl Lady T?

Behind the Groove -- Teena Marie
Miracles Need Wings to Fly -- Teena Marie
Yes, Indeed -- Teena Marie
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Monday, November 17, 2014

Adam 4 Adam, WTF moments

So, I've decided to embrace my inner hoe. I've been fighting it for quite some time. Though I've had my share of flings and friends with benefits, I've never actually had a full-blown phase of promiscuity and fucking with abandon.

Recently, I created an account on Adam for Adam (A4A) and everything was going swimmingly for about a week or so. But lemme tell you about these two mofos...

Let's start with Joe.
According to Joe's profile, he is 6'2", 220 lbs, black bear, married (in the closet), 6.5 cut dick, and a vers top. The three pics on his profile looked promising, and plus he was talking real good and freaky in his description, so I hit him up.

After a few days of inboxing back and forth, we got along pretty good so we exchanged numbers and decided to be texting buddies. One thing led to another and we started Sexting.

I have absolutely no interest in sexting (1. because I'm not in the 8th grade and 2., who has time for that?). But he initiated it and seemed to be really into it, so I played along. The deeper we got into the session, the...crazier he became. I tried to talk to him on his level of kink, but...I had to immediately hit the BLOCK button when *sighs* I can't even articulate this. Look at this screen cap.

W.T.F. It is some realllll freaks out there, dude. To each, his own. But when it comes to scat, I will NEVER be about that life.
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Next, let's talk about...Jack.
According to my radar, Jack lives less than a mile from where I do. Jack is a fine ass white dude. I gotta give him his props. He kinda looks like Matthew McConaugheyA couple nights back, he was in my inbox trying to lure me into his secret den and give me "the best head of my life". And guess what? I was actually about to take his offer up. That is, until, he asks me if I can bring 40$ with me so I can help him out on rent until next week. W.T.F.
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*sighs* so, as usual, my sex life is a clusterfuck. My dick must've walked under a ladder, or broken a mirror or something b/c it has the worst luck in finding a partner.
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Music, you say?

Deep Purple -- Smoke on the Water

Jess Chambers-- Full of Fire

Clap Clap Riot -- Everyone's Asleep
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Oh, one more thing: I may be moving to Indiana within the next few months for grad school. More details on that later.
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Enjoy the pics!

-_Cogito
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