So first
off, a nigga had to gon' head n' just delete that whole "YouTube"
channel thing I tried to make happen. I look crazy af in those vids and plus,
it totally just outted my blog to someone in my personal life.
Let me
explain.
My younger
brother of 5 years, Rome, is the 5'12",230 lbs, darker-skinned version of
me, with a few extra spoonfuls of sugar.
Growing up,
our dad was the typical asshole who spoke openly of his disgust for homosexuals
and that none of us better not turn out "that way" because he's not
raising any faggots.
Where I was
constantly questioning my sexuality and ashamed of being me, Rome never really seemed to give a fuck. He's always been himself no matter what, and I really admire that quality in him.
Luckily, we're blessed to have a family where our sexuality is no issue whatsoever.
In fact, our ENTIRE family would jump to our defense when our dad was out of line. These days, our father is working on repairing his relationships with us and is learning how to separate his love for us from the lifestyles he disagrees with.
Rome and I got a
chance to reconnect this past Thanksgiving in Chicago (we smoked weed the WHOLE
time and it was EVERYTHING). We're so much alike and anytime we're together,
it's bound to be a good night.
Knowing how
much he looks up to me makes me want to be a more responsible gay man, if that
makes sense.
He was
perusing YouTube the other day and came across my page. I trust him enough to
keep my blog secret, but beyond him, NO ONE in my personal life can EVER know
about my blog. So I just deleted that shit. Too risky.
This post is
dedicated to the biggest lil' brother I could ask for.
Are you the only (out) gay person in your family? Do tell!
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Music, you
say?
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Excuse any typos and enjoy the pics!
-_Cogito
Capricornaries@hotmail.com
