Tuesday, April 23, 2013

One Million Hits and Counting!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!! I knew ya'll loved me!

I've been writing this blog since July of 2009 and I had no idea it would become such an important part of my life. I've aged, changed, and grown in ways I never could have foreseen.


Without this blog, I don't know WHAT I would do. It isn't healthy to keep all this sexy shit inside of my head.

So thank ya'll.

Thank ya'll for reading, commenting, emailing, wisdom, dating advice, getting to know me, and helping me to know myself.

Ya'll have been here through break ups, deaths, insecurities, transitions, horny behavior, car problems, etc.

Especially in a world where Blogging is fading away and losing viewers to Vloggers...
Why do I blog?

1. First off, I love porn. Not just as spank-material, I love the industry itself. I have favorite directors, production companies, actors/models, etc. This blog is my outlet when I want to discuss relating topics that nobody in my real life can ever know I'm into.

2. I am a helpless freak. A 23 year old with the sexual tastes of guys twice my age and quadruple my experience. I'll get more into that in my next post "If I Directed Porn".

3. This is kinda like my... diary. It's funny how I can share my secrets with total strangers but not anyone in my immediate life.

4. Because on the 8th day, God created Adam Dexter (Click Here)
I know sometimes I only get to make a post twice a month (if I'm lucky), but I'm just hella busy lately.
This accelerated Bachelor's program is kicking my ass. But I'll be done in December, so, yay!

With that, I'm doing a timed test right now in another tab and I've got to finish it right quick.

I just wanted to drop this lil' dime on ya'll.

Marylin Monroe -- Brianna Perry

Peanut Butter -- RuPaul ft. Big Freedia

Halo -- (Beyonce cover by Harper Blynn)

Slow Hands -- (Interpol cover by Azealia Banks)

Slow Hands -- Interpol
Enjoy the pics!


Sunday, April 7, 2013

Fools Rush In

...So I met this guy...

Let's call him... Steve.

He's 45. 6'4" light skinned, husky build, kinda fem/masculine, out, single, cute, etc.

We've been talking for about two weeks now. We met on A4A

The conversations are mind blowing. I'm really feeling this guy.

He doesn't mind that I'm only 23 because, well, I handle my shit.

He's been out since the age of 18 but he lives a private life. I can appreciate that. Be out, but don't make a fuss of it. And according to him "If someone walks up and asks me if I'm gay, I'll tell them. But if not, then it's always fun to let people guess".

My sentiments exactly.

Granted, there are a few red flags:

1. He lives three hours away in Detroit. We haven't met yet though. Whenever we make plans to meet up, I have to drive up there because he doesn't have a car. -_-

2. I know everyone has their ups and downs. Call me judgemental, but at age 45, I think you should have your shit together by now. No job. No car. Rooming with a friend. Hmmmm....

3. I told him I'm not looking for a rebound. I just got out of a relationship and I'm just trying to find someone to talk to. Yet, he's been pressuring me to have sex. It's not that I don't want to sleep with him, it's just that, well, him pressuring me to do it is a turn off. Like damn. I'm gonna give you the goods when I'M ready. Thirstiness is never cute.

4. I finally understand Beyonce's song Yes (click here) from her Dangerously in Love album. A few nights ago, I was on the phone with him, having some deep conversation. Half way through me telling him about my mom passing away back in 2004, I noticed he kept on trying to steer the conversation onto sexual topics. Come to think of it, he does the same stuff when we're texting...

I ain't no cheap thrill, damn it.
Truth is, I don't have a problem being friends with benefits. But make sure that line is established. Don't just try and sweet talk me just to get in my boxers.

Fools Rush In (Marie Antoinette Soundtrack)

Fools rush in, where wise men never go.
But wise men never fall in love, so how are they to know?
When we met, I felt my life begin.
So open up your heart and let
This fool rush in...

Ain't THAT the truth? Sometimes Love hurts. Of course.

But fuck it.

I have a funny feeling Steve is on games. Because of that, I'm gonna keep my guard up for now. Hell, it's far too early to even think about vulnerability.

At least I'm not rushing into this thing blindfolded.

But I AM rushing in, nonetheless.

I urge everybody to take a chance.
Yes, it's scary b/c it leaves you vulnerable, but at least you TRIED. Don't be like the wise men who were too afraid of falling in love.

It is far too soon to take Steve seriously. But as of right now, I'd like to see where it goes from here...

Enjoy the pics!