Wednesday, December 31, 2014

3.6 gpa and Selfies

Well! Will you look at that? Your strong ass has survived another year! I can only hope that the ups and down of the past 12 months have impacted your life for the better. We all go through bullshit. 

For me, 2014 challenged me to put myself first and...trust the process. 

January-March 2014,  I went three months without going to church. For that first month, I felt SO guilty about not attending church. But my absence made a bigger statement than words ever could. After a sort of "spiritual stalemate" between my pastor and I, we reconciled, but I still only have one foot in and one foot out of church... But that's another post. 

April-June 2014, After a family retreat to the Smokey Mountains, I went back to Louisville, KY to kick it a little while longer. While there, my very first best friend and I broke. Read my post In Memoriam (click here) to know what I'm talking about. 

July-September 2014--Summer was...crazy. My grandmother was evicted from her apartment for a verrrryyyyy petty reason. By God's grace, we found one that is not only better, but cheaper! Count your blessings. Oh, and I finished school in September. Guess what nigga came out with a 3.6 gpa? ME! My Summa Cum Laude ass! 

October-December 2014-- In late October, after all kinds of rejection letters from grad schools, I was finally accepted into a great grad school that is only 3 hours away from my family. Yayyy! Not only that, but I already have a one bedroom unit apartment available next summer 2015 when it's time for me to relocate. 

Unencumbered of toxic people, and school--nothing was holding me back anymore. I finally had the chance to expand and grow.
I decided to get back in the dating scene. 

I met a really great guy on OK Cupid. We've been talking for like 2 months, though we've yet to meet in person. At one point, I was talking to him, and a few other guys. But the other night, I realized that the only one I really want to get to know, is him... We "clicked" on our very first conversation and our chemistry is just...crazy good. We'll see where that goes...

I can only hope that you, too, have grown and learned something from this past year. 
I'm not just talking out of my ass when I say that I love ya'll. The fact that ya'll are still here with me is empowering. 

Before this year ends, forget what you must, forgive those who've earned it, and move on. 

Til next time, ya'll! <3 font="" xoxoxoxo="">
Excuse any typos. Im not entirely sober right now. Pregame much? 
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Music, you say? I found some GREAT music these past few months. 

My Song Knows what you Did in the Dark (Light 'em Up) -- Fall Out Boy-
Gas Pedal -- Sage the Gemini ft. Iamsu
Down on my Luck -- Vic Mensa
Kinda Sometimes Maybe -- Jessie Ware
Worst Behavior -- Drake  
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Enjoy the pics! I didn't feel like uploading any other pics so...I hope you like my lil' selfies! 
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-_Cogito




Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Satiate the Beast

How much have you changed since your first time having sex?

At 15, when I began my sexual pursuits:
I used to only be attracted to light skin dudes.
I thought I was just a bottom.
I thought I'd never be into any race other than black or other colored ethnicities.
Hell, I wasn't even using lube to jack off yet!

Before the fleshlights, before the male G-spot toys, before this very blog, I was just a newbie.
I was an unassuming rookie who could still learn a thing or two about sex in general.

That seems like a lifetime ago. The savage beast inside me has since been awakened and
BABY, lemme tell you--it is roaring hella loud.

There's levels to this shit. From the naive mindset of my teenage years, up to this very moment as an adult, I now realize the sexual fluidity (no pun intended) in terms of fucking.

In specific, my taste in Porn is very fickle.
One night, all I want to see is a decent BreedItRaw flick
Another night, I want to see nothing but Treasure Island Media
On another night, I have a taste for a spicy Latin/Puerto Rican dude
The list goes on and on. Is that weird?

How has your sexuality evolved since you took the training wheels off?
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Music, you say? How 'bout a lil' of my girl Lady T?

Behind the Groove -- Teena Marie
Miracles Need Wings to Fly -- Teena Marie
Yes, Indeed -- Teena Marie
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