Thursday, February 28, 2013

Matt, Fresh out of Jail

In 2009, my younger brother was 17. And that meant one thing: you couldn't tell him SHIT about life, unless of course you were one of his friends.

Him and his homies went out of town to a party with some guys they didn't really know.

On their way back in, the driver stopped for gas.

The story changes, depending on who tells it, but the resulting thing is:

Everything went to hell when that driver decided to rob the joint.

My brother is in the backseat sleep when it all happened. But because he was the only one in the car (and the fact that the engine was still on) the police considered him the get-away driver.

Fast-Forward to the Court Dates.

All the guys involved had to do time in jail.

Everybody in question started pointing fingers at my brother and since it was their word against his, My brother was facing 3 years in the county jail for something he had no control over.

If it wasn't for Matt, my brother would JUST be getting out of jail.

Matt was the only one in their with enough honor to pretty much take the blame for him.

See, we've known Matt since we were kids. And Matt knew in his heart that my brother was not "Jail Material".

In what I believe was an act of Loyalty: Matt sacrificed himself instead of my brother.

For that, I will always have MAD respect for him.

My brother always went up to visit/put money on Matt's book in jail. He did all that to prove how grateful he is for Matt and that he's not in this thing alone).

Matt has been out of jail for around 2 week now and we decided to throw him a Welcome Home party.

It was HELLA fun...

But I noticed something was kinda... off, about him...

I couldn't quite put my finger on it at the time, but something was up...

You know when somebody gives you that "I wanna fuck" look on their face?
I could've SWORN that's what he was giving me. All night.

Whenever Matt comes over while I'm here, he makes sure to come up and say hello. Even if I'm locked away in my room.

Earlier today, I was over at my granny's house, chilling.

I heard Matt and my brother coming in but I thought nothing of it.

After about an hour, I forgot they were even there.

I walk to the kitchen to go get some Pizza Rolls and I see Matt is sleep on the couch. My brother had left.

So it was just Matt and I there...

I tried to avoid the inevitable awkwardness it would be so I pretty much tip-toed around the kitchen so I wouldn't wake him up.

Finally getting back to my room, I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

Matt: (knock knock), hey [Cogito] where did Ralph go? 

Me: uh... Idk I think he might be taking Amber (his girlfriend) to work or something... 

Matt: Oh... Can I come in? 

Me: (goes up and cracks the door to look at him). 

Matt: You look like you need some company in there. 

(when he said that, the light-bulb over my head started shining, I wasn't expecting Matt to be into me, let alone make the first move. )

Me: if by "company" you mean alone-time then yes, I DO need company. 

Matt: LMAO! Hell naw!... you sure? 

Me: Yeah... maybe some other time... (as I give him that "Not Even in Your Dreams" look)

Matt: (he bows out graciously, showing no sign of attitude for me turning him down).

And that was that.
I don't want to read too deep into what Matt's motives were, or if he even had any.

He COULD have really just wanted to kick it.

But then again... he COULD have just wanted to lick it.
Either way, it wouldn't feel right to sleep with a childhood friend like Matt.

I don't know..

Am I trying to make it deeper than it really is?

Let me know, ya'll. A nigga is confused on this one...

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  1. WOW. I hate that it went down like that with the guys serving time. But Hey Jail booty...

  2. is Matt cute? to be honest, I don't see a problem here at all. You are only a couple years older than Matt.

  3. You did the right thing. Never shit where you eat. That was too close and things could have got real messy.
    Immanuel at

  4. Chile, boo! Let Matt hit! LMAO! I couldn't resist. You'll never know what his intentions are unless you let it play out.

  5. @ Musiq-- some of the kinkiest porn scenes are shot in prisons!

    @ Anonymous -- I don't know... I've never really looked at Matt "like that". I guess he's not bad looking... Age isn't the issue. It's the history we have that breaks the deal.

    @ Immanuel -- 'tis true!

    @ Anonymous -- Can't take that risk. That nigga will be looking for me in the daytime with a flashlight. He's already in my face enough as it is. Smh. I gotta avoid being messy.

    @ Gayte-Keeper -- Honestly, no. I consider Matt a brother of mine and I assumed the feeling was mutual. Guess not!


  6. Oh man. I hate those awkward moments when the "straight" boys are waiting for you to make the first move. Good for you for walking on by. But! Is he hot??? Hope you are well!

  7. I think you were really reading way too much into it. First you say that he was giving you "the look" it could have just be a look as to wow he looks different from last I saw him, or it could have been a look like wow... look how much he has changed. As to the "company" aspect... maybe he just wanted to chill and see what you been up too. Childhood friends does have the tendency to wanna catch up on each other lives. I think you should have welcomed him in and stopped him if things went left field.

  8. @Lover Boi-- In retrospect, I see what you mean. Since then he's been real chill but keeps his distance...