Me, Myself and I...

Pay this bill. Do that assignment. Call this Negro back. Don’t be late for this. Don’t miss that. You still have (insert Chore here) to do. Go to the Gym.

I think it is so easy for us to be caught up in all the many fast currents of life.

Do you ever have “those days” where you want to stand on top of Mt. Everest and scream: WHAT THE FUCK DO YA’LL WANT FROM ME????

...but when I climb my metaphorical ass down, people are still going to do what they’ve always done...

Eh... that’s Life, right?

Well, here’s a list of things that I do on days when Murder in the First Degree becomes an option. I’m not imposing them on you as if you MUST follow them; this is just what works for Cogito, k?

1.      1.  TAKE MYSELF ON A DATE.

*This past Saturday, I wanted to go to the movies with ANYBODY but EVERYBODY had other shit to do. And ya’ll know I took myself “off the market” so my Rolodex is pretty empty these days... (Aside from Red, but he’s another post...). So 9 pm rolls around and I thought to myself “hmm.... let me Google the show times...” Next thing I know, I was at the Cinema downtown with Popcorn, Cheese Dogs, Pepsi and Raisinettes—sitting in the back row SMASHING OUT (snacking) watching X-Men: First Class all by myself—and I had a fucking ball! *When I got around the corner from my house, I hit 94 West and drove for a half hour. Blasting Gospel music with all 4 windows down, just CHILLIN!

*Eh, I’m a cheap Date but I enjoyed the peace I found by just “doing me” for the night.

2.       2. REWARD MYSELF

Whenever I refrain from snatching a Bitch up, I treat myself to something nice. A pair of shoes, a new Book, a new game for the 360, etc...  

3.       3. DON’T BE SO HARD ON MYSELF

We all have those “Shoulda-Coulda-Woulda” conversations with ourselves. But chances are, we perform things a lot better than we perceive. And even if we don’t do all that well: SO FUCKING WHAT??

4.       4. ORGASMS. AND PLENTY OF THEM.

Show me a person with a piss-poor attitude ALL THE FUCKING TIME, and I’ll show you a person who needs to SPEND MORE TIME FUCKING. ‘Nuff said.

5.       5. SUBMIT MYSELF TO A HIGHER POWER

When the “bad” turns to “really bad”. When the going gets even tougher. I’m grateful that I’m able to come to God with all these burdens and He takes care of them. You wanna hear a mini-sermon right quick?

PRAYER CHANGES THINGS. EVEN IF IT DOESN’T CHANGE THE SITUATION, IT CAN CHANGE HOW YOU RESPOND TO IT.

(Amen).

6.       6. NEW TEXTING/PHONE BUDDIES!

I found a new phone buddy and we’ve been chatting off and on and it’s quite refreshing. To get a new opinion/point of view on an issue of yours and vice versa. Eh, it’s just pretty cool... Especially when they can hold a conversation! (ILY ColdPhoenix!) ;)

7. HMMM... WHAT COULD I DO AT THIS VERY MOMENT TO FEEL SATISFIED? 

It doesn't have to be anything major. If I just have a craving for a McDouble, I get my ass in the car and go get one... You shouldn't deny yourself of things as long as they do no harm to you or anyone else. 

8. WRITE ABOUT IT. 

I never know how I truly feel about something "heavy" until I write it down. By writing/typing about a tough subject, my words and feelings become tangible; I'm able to stare at them on the paper/screen and process emotions that I didn't even know I had... Thank GOD for poetry... 

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This list, like all the other lists I post, go on and on. 

Me, Myself and I by De La Soul. My gift to you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E3kgjzUsDeg

Remember this: 

Life is short. 

Don't sweat the small stuff. 

FUCK THEM AND THEIR COMMENTS. 

Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. 

...okay, I'll get off of my SoapBox now, but even I needed to read this post...

(excuse any typos)

Enjoy the pics! 

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--Cogito